Saturday, January 30, 2010

sigh. Sucks. What can i and should i apply for in uni? Biological science? Chemistry and biological chemistry? or just go NIE? But i dont really want chem and biochem. It's all CHEMISTRYYY. But if i cant get into life science at NUS or bioscience in NTU then i'll get into NIE? And i might as well be screwed Dear God, please show me that you have a plan. Bcos i'm really lost ): Amen.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Stay firm and stand strong.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

some days i wish things would just slow down, bcos i'm living in the past i thought today is tuesday I give up looking for white formal top. It's like the hardest thing to hunt for on earth. Besides, i dont think i have the luxury to waste time on such things. Just yesterday, i saw how terrible the next few weeks are going to be. Though it may be the last few weeks, i predict it is going to also be the most dreadful weeks. Then i see how my weeks are always a cycle; weekdays = school and weekends = church. I wish i'm done fighting for what i want and stop creating more trouble than i can manage. So why can't things fit perfectly? There are things that we all thought might happen. But to me, it has already began. And after all the expiratory dates, i could just be immune to this. Not that it didnt matter, but it would have if there was a stronger foundation.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

what do you do when you don't even know you've offended someone what do you do when you don't even know you've quarreled with someone bcos all i did was kept wondering why why it broke without a known cause

Saturday, January 23, 2010

another week. I have no idea why people have the habit of being late. Like how people can turn up an hour late for cell. I was late today, and rushing to school didnt seem very fun. Or does it simply reflect your attitude? "Oh heck, late only what." It's annoying. Really annoying. Especially when you're the one waiting. What is the point of stating the time to meet when people are just going to be late i wish i have time to breathe. No more reports, assignments, powerpoints or logbooks. Things just keep dragging and dragging and they simply seem endless. Weekends don't make a difference anymore. I know what i've said. And i'm not sorry.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

what seemed so right yesterday, didn't seem so right today anymore. Patience. I'm sorry if you lost yours with me. Bcos now i do realise that there is a right and wrong. It just isnt wrong to share what you have in mind. This is a silent world. Bcos people don't see what they can do anymore. But when they do, they are the peace destroyers simply bcos they are different being the opposite. I know i shouldn't let my anger take over. But sometimes, it is what drives me to do certain things better. I wish people would have more guts to stand for what they want. Then again, i really hate my guts bcos it never fails to get me into trouble. You say you've got my back. You've got me covered. Show it to me then. If not, don't ever wonder why i don't trust. I wish to speak to so many people today. But i just don't have the time or energy left.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Rejection once again. I have no idea what's gotten into me but it just seem like the right thing to do. I'm sorry if i'm missing out all the fun times or if i just feel so distant. But i'm glad that at least we have the time in school to share. Here's a bit for everyone (: Sometime we fall down and can’t get back up We’re hiding behind skin that’s too tough How come we don’t say I love you enough Till it’s too late, it’s not too late Our hearts are hungry for a food that won’t come We could make a feast from these crumbs And we’re all staring down the barrel of a gun So if your life flashed before you, what would you wish you would’ve done Yeah… gotta start Looking at the hand of the time we’ve been given here This is all we got and we gotta start thinkin’ it Every second counts on a clock that’s tickin Gotta live like we’re dying We only got 86 400 seconds in a day To turn it all around or throw it all away We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em while we got the chance to say, Gotta live like we’re dying (Continued after the jump) Well if you plane fell out of the skies Who would you call with your last goodbyes Should be so careful who we live out of our lives So when we long for absolution, there’ll be no one on the line -Live like we're dying, Kris Allen

Monday, January 18, 2010

that was quite some drama outside my window this morning. 4am -.- instead of sleeping, i'm watching this annoying couple quarrel on the streets. Shouting, slapping, pulling, pushing and multiple "F"s. For a moment there i was wondering if i should call the police. But the girl got ditched. And she sat there crying until i left my house at 7am this morning. weird people. I wish everyday would be a weekend. Or time would just be still now bcos i've so much to do.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

that fuzzy feeling (: The whole thing about receiving salvation and backsliding is so complicated. Do we view salvation and being saved as two different things? Like receiving salvation is being saved. But what if people backslide? Are they still saved? But they received salvation what. Then if you backslide and somehow believed again, will you be saved? But they say you can only receive salvation once. And when you bring this up at the dinner table, I realised how much my parents know and how they are never slow to speak and quick to listen. And just yesterday, i called my mum to tell her off bcos she never waits for people to finish saying then hang up on the phone call. Talk about patience..sigh. Met Geena, Giff and Kenneth today after class with PONYOOO (hahas!) Maybe i should go arcade more often. The shooting game i played with Geena as as team didnt even last for a minute. Idiots like me never know how to reload guns. hahas! And my aiming sucks. But it was fun (: esp with good company (: and the strong wind is blowing the fresh new leaves into my room again.

new start (: Years go by and time just seems to fly But the memories remain